Monday, April 20, 2015

I feel so sick I can barely get up my bed

but I can't stay there forever

I forced myself to walk outside

I almost forgot how to breathe

It's so painful

oh God ������

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Sunday, April 19, 2015

lesson I learnt

I was reading a discussion in a group chat, they were discussing about something I don't really understand, something related to machinary thingy.

I keep on reading to find out more information so that I'll understand.

But all of sudden, someone who were not in the disccussion posted a picture of a group of girls.

I was like : what the heck? what is so wrong with her? is she trying to get everyone's attention or something? Geez, this random stupid picture is just so God damn out of the topic, I'm sick of it, I just can't understand her, at all.

the boss of the discussion appeared typing this:
ssstttt stay quiet, the girls are studying

God, I've been so negatively reactive

and he indirectly taught me to be positively proactive

that's why great people are great

they think the different way
they take it easy

now I can see how great people deal with such kind of situation
I am ashamed of myself x_x

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Tuesday, April 14, 2015

a little humour

tetehnya : nasi ayam ya?
saya : iya teh, sama sup yah
tetehnya : iya, nggak pernah yg lain? ini aja?
saya : iya hehe, habis sukanya itu
(then mencoba untuk beda)
saya : eh tambahin ati ampela juga deh
tetehnya : ha? ini kan udah ayam?
saya : iyah gapapa, tambahin aja
tetehnya : nggak sekalian sebadan? tambahin telur sama ususnya juga?
saya : hahahaha nggak ah teh, nggak suka telur
tetehnya : ini bakal langsung dimakan semua?
saya : liat ntar deh hehehe

Saturday, April 11, 2015


never before I got such a wonderful celebration

my day was almost as black as black hole

I hoped that the first message will come from the person I hope will do
but I was wrong

maybe I expect too much

and it's all my fault
I should never did

so I waited...
but nothing come up
nothing at all
not a single message

I then triggered it
but still, nothing happened

I don't know

I shouldn't cry
I shouldn't be sad

God, thank you so much for the celebration and for the gift

it was too much that I cried a lot
I'm overwhelmed

but I'm happy
I really am

and I'm sorry
because deep...deep in my heart
I still think that I never deserve such as gift...

thus it makes me cry, again
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Wednesday, April 8, 2015

so I was Tumblring....

Omfg "talk about" is a lot cuter than ask me
  • 1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.
  • 2:Talk about your first kiss.
  • 3:Talk about the person you've had the most intense romantic feelings for.
  • 4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far.
  • 5:Talk about the best birthday you've had.
  • 6:Talk about the worst birthday you've had.
  • 7:Talk about your biggest insecurity.
  • 8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of.
  • 9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.
  • 10:Talk about the biggest fight you've ever had.
  • 11:Talk about the best dream you've ever had.
  • 12:Talk about the worst dream you've ever had.
  • 13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.
  • 14:Talk about a vacation.
  • 15:Talk about the time you were most content in life.
  • 16:Talk about the best party you've ever been to.
  • 17:Talk about someone you want to be friends with.
  • 18:Talk about something that happened in elementary school.
  • 19:Talk about something that happened in middle school.
  • 20:Talk about something that happened in high school.
  • 21:Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.
  • 22:Talk about your worst fear.
  • 23:Talk about a time someone turned you down.
  • 24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.
  • 25:Talk about an ex-best friend.
  • 26:Talk about things you do when you're sick.
  • 27:Talk about your favorite part of someone else's body.
  • 28:Talk about your fetishes.
  • 29:Talk about what turns you on.
  • 30:Talk about what turns you off.
  • 31:Talk about what you think death is like.
  • 32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.
  • 33:Talk about what you do when you are sad.
  • 34:Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured.
  • 35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.
  • 36:Talk about your guilty pleasures.
  • 37:Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.
  • 38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.
  • 39:Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.
  • 40:Talk about the end of something in your life.

so, I was Tumblring right?
and...I found what I pasted above...and...because it's around 10 and I got a few more hours before I'm going to work, soooo, let's make it! (5 of it first, and I'll update the rest tomorrow)

  • 1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.
  • it was around 2007 or even less...
  • could be 2005, I was watching MetroTV, and I saw one scene of a movie that wowed me!
  • it was about a huge chocolate waterfall and someone unique with a tall hat
  • I didn't know what's the title of the movie...
  • and a few years later, my brother gave me a DVD player, so I started lending DVDs
  • and accidentally I found the exactly same scene, there printed on the front cover of the DVD
  • the chocolate waterfall!
  • so then I finally found out that it titled : Charlie and The Chocolate Factory
  • awwww, I'm sooo sooo sooo happy and excited, really!!!
  • 2:Talk about your first kiss.
  • oh God, should I?
  • eww....
  • I don't feel like talking about it
  • my first kiss was kinda terrible, eww....
  •  I somehow feel like I'm about to vomit, ewwww hahhahahah
  • 3:Talk about the person you've had the most intense romantic feelings for.
  • what if the person is...myself? :O
  • no, I'm joking ehehehehe
  • well, you might already know who he really is
  • he is the one I really care and love
  • and I really, really hope that one day we can have a cute little family!
  • 4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far.
  • oh dear..., no, not now #sobs
  • 5:Talk about the best birthday you've had.
  • hahahaha, it was kinda long time ago
  • when I was 14
  • I went to school just like what I always do
  • it was 20th or even 22th April 2006
  • so I never expected such kind of birthday surprise
  • all of sudden, my teacher called upon my name
  • and the other 4, she asked us to go in front of the class, standing
  • and she asked : you know why did I call your name?
  • and of course we didn't, so we shake our heads, because, yes, we had no idea why
  • and she continued : I won't let you sit till you find out why, till you know what mistake you all did today
  • and I was like : whaaat? mistake? what did I do so wrong till I deserve this?
  • I recall all the memory I have, especially for that day
  • and I don't feel like I did something unusual
  • and she shouted at us: come on! you rebel!
  • oh God, I almost dropped my tear
  • I mean, it was the very first time a teacher angry at me, I'm the kind of a silent student who just know how to study and get good marks
  • I never have fights, never trigger noises, never be a 'rebel' at all
  • what happened anyway?
  • and why?
  • and you know what?
  • someone cried, it was a friend of mine standing just after my shoulder
  • she said sorry, and cried, and she said she really had no idea of what she did wrong, but she really apologized for that
  • then ...
  • the ice breaker
  • Happyyy Birrthhhhdaaaayyy tooo youuuu
  • Happy birthhhhdaaaaayyy tooo youuuuuu
  • Happpyyy Birthhhdaaaayyyy
  • Hhaaaaappppyyy Biiirrthhhhdaaaayyy
  • Haappppyyy biiirrthhhdaaayyyy TOOO YOOUUU
  • and all of people in the class shake our hands and wished us a very awesome birthday
awwww, then we all finally dropped our tears hahahahah
it was sooooo soooo unexpected
because it was way so far from the day I have my birthday, so did everyone else

the point is they did it so that we didn't know that it was a birthday surprise for all students who have birthday on April hahahhaha
nice everyone, thanksss :*

Saturday, April 4, 2015

88 love life

do not do something because of others

don't do something because you want to be ahead of others

don't do something because by doing it, others will compliment you for it

don't do something because others aren't, and you simply want to be different

don't do something because other are, and you want to be current

don't do something because others told you to

don't do something because others told you not to, and you feel cool being a rebel

do something because you enjoy doing it,
you believe it brings value to your life and you just know that it's the right thing to do
I thought I would know, but I guess I wouldn't
I don't know, maybe I just need some air...
I would say 'fresh air'
but apparently, it's kind of difficult to find any here

so I went out
just out

and as my thought flies, I smell something like...
I think it's the smell of chicken porridge in the air...
well, I count that as 'fresh' then

when I arrived in my destination
(not really my destination though, it just suddenly crossed my mind, so instead of really going nowhere, I decided to drop in)

eww, I was just thinking of sitting outside, but the noise...
and this one is much worse, the smell

it smells like a bad, dirty public toilet

no, no way to sit outside
I went in

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Friday, April 3, 2015

what to do if you don't know what to do (2)

hey! meet me again ��
so, I'll share my experience on "what to do if you don't know what to do"

sometimes we woke up so early and having no real plan for the day, and we be like "what am I supposed to do?"

yep, just the same hahaha!

no worries, don't waste your time doing nothing, we have too little time here!

so what did I do when I don't know what to do?

first, I'll educate myself by learning something new that I can get from many sources on the internet (sometimes I'm just too lazy to go out) for example I'll browse on pinterest for a new recipe and try it, and later on I can post it to instagram or facebook to share the new knowledge, and from there on I can gain feedbacks that will make my day much better

second, still on pinterest, other than recipe, I also browse for a D.I.Y. it could be a paper quilling

or a nice greeting card

or else you can do a fashion design

all hail pinterest!

or third, if you want a random news, videos, any information, you can use stumbleupon

it's awesome ❤
I learn a lot of things from it

and fourth, you know, this blue one, Facebook!
yesss, it contains a lot of information and of course people! hahaha
I usually like pages that become my interest, if you're someone who just can't stay at home, you can use facebook to search event near by, or you can also search for any pages related to your interest that based on your city, so that when some events come up, you can go there and have a good time!

last but not least, fifth, go to a bookstore and find a great book!

hope this will inspire you!
see you on the next post ❤❤❤

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