Saturday, March 28, 2015

eating with your eyes closed

yep, true, I was eating with both of my eyes closed
and I was wondering ...
does everyone can do this?
I mean, there's a possibility for someone to not to be able to do this, like they have a bad estimation without seeing things, so instead of mouth, the spoon will get onto their nose or else
so I Googled it and found 2 interesting things
don't know whether it's true or not, but I guess based on its source, it's most likely to be true, check this out :

and, what closed your eyes without even knowing it? like you just did...
what causing it?
well it has its own explanation:

and still I wonder...

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Thursday, March 26, 2015

what to do if you don't know what to do

so, I was desperate and literally feel like shit, yes shit, no censor...
and I just don't know what to do next...
I feel like talking to someone but I don't know how
I don't know who too
I can't just simply burst into tears and talk to anyone I face, right?
or can I?
everything's just don't seem right...

I feel like writing, but my paper always get wet of my tears
so, might just better type it 

I know that I sucks...
I know that I...lame...
and stupid and reckless...
but then, I can't just stop and crying for years right?

so, I have to find a way to help myself, to put an end into this miserable condition I'm in

some people said that we must identify what makes us feeling so
and from there on, we can know how to deal with it

but what if it just too complicated that we don't even know what certain events nor things causing it?

like..we really got no idea of what's really happening on us, we just don't know..
all we feel is desperate

maybe we can find enough courage to talk to someone we know well
to a best friend of ours perhaps?
or to our parents?
or we can just post it to secret?
and talk to stranger about it?

but unfortunately I have no, 
not exactly that I have no though..., 
 I'm just too confuse I don't know where to start

so, with all the confusion, desperation, helplessness
I began to do what we all might can do with no, or least harm
that is..
to Google it

now as I typed it, it must be sounds even more miserable

but for me, it's effective enough for self helping

so first, I just simply type : 'what to do if you're feeling like shit'

on first page first row I found this LINK

it's a web own by the U,S. to actually provide us who get through tough times
it's like helping to prevent suicide, helping us to get out of misery, it has tons of  great articles which could help us to cope with A to Z problems, thank God it appeared first, I don't know what if something bad appeared, could drag me to double devastation I guess, which result in ...

speaking of suicide, as we might know, many people who been though really tough times killed themselves because they think that it will end the problem and they just been too long in extreme desperation
we can't blame them of being reckless and all
maybe they're just so...helpless

and we, wait, I mean, me, and me, who are almost there...
I won't it happen to me nor anyone else, really, it just so bad, we must prevent it to happen

and I'll tell you what I've experienced and how to deal with it

so, continue with the web

I'll just copy and paste it here OK?
so that you can read it carefully, it's really good, it's great!
we can identify what might be going inside us and then we can look for help
check it out:

Life can be rough sometimes, and most people, at one time or another, feel like shit. This can mean different things for different people. It might include feeling sad, angry, stressed out, or fed up. It might also be a sense of not feeling like yourself or feeling physically sick.

Why you might feel like shit

Sometimes it is difficult to work out why you are feeling shitty.  Identifying the factors that are contributing to this feeling might help you to work out how to deal with it. Remember —it’s just a feeling and it’s likely to pass.
Some reasons you might feel shitty:
  • You’ve experienced one or several tough or stressful events;
  • People around you are experiencing tough times. It’s not uncommon for other people’s unhappiness to influence how you’re feeling. This could be because it is hard to see people you care about feeling sad, or because of the way they’re coping with their emotions, they are difficult to be around.
Not being able to identify the reason for how you are feeling is not uncommon.  Factors that might contribute to feeling shitty include:
Psychological factors
  • Stress or anxiety—Stress can come from many different sources, like pressures at school, work or home from parents, teachers and sometimes your friends, or even your own expectations;
  • Grief or loss—This can include the death of a loved one, or the end of a relationship or friendship;
  • Depression and other mental illnesses.
Social factors
  • Family problems, like parents going through a divorce or fighting, or transitioning to a step family;
  • Problems at school or work, like bullying or violence;
  • Relationship or friendship problems, like breaking up or fighting with a boyfriend or girlfriend;
  • Moving into a new house;
  • Starting at a new school or job;
  • Living with someone with a mental or physical illness or disease;
  • Feeling bored or uninspired, like over school or summer vacation.
Physical factors
Physical or biological factors might also influence your feelings and reactions as well as how you think about yourself and the world around you. Physical factors might include:
  • Not eating well;
  • Not getting enough exercise;
  • Not getting enough sleep;
  • Using drugs or alcohol;
  • Being sick, or fighting off illness, which can make you feel run down and not well;
  • Chronic illness or other medical conditions;
  • Hormonal changes, especially for women during their menstrual cycles. This may happen a few days before you get your period and you may not make the connection immediately.

What to do if you’re feeling like shit

When you’re feeling shitty, you might have the urge to lash out at someone, even if they had nothing to do with your feelings. Here are some ideas that might stop you from blowing up and help you get to a happier place.
Get informed. Once you figure out what might be causing you to feel shitty, you can do something about it. On the ReachOut site, you’ll find tons of info on different issues, including depression, family and relationships. You’ll also find suggestions on how to manage your feelings and where you can get help.
Talk to someone. Talking to someone you feel comfortable with, like a friend, teacher, parent or counselor, can be a great way of expressing your feelings. These people might also be able to help you identify why you are feeling shitty and work out strategies for dealing with it.
Chill out. Sometimes getting some space away from what is making you feel this way or a change of scenery can be helpful. This might include going for a walk or listening to your favorite music, reading a book, going to the movies, or whatever works for you.
Express your feelings. Writing down your feelings or keeping a journal can be a great way of understanding your current emotions in a particular situation. It can also help you come up with alternative solutions to problems.
Express your feelings in a way that won’t cause bodily damage to yourself or another person.  Try yelling or crying into a pillow, dancing round the room to loud music or punching a pillow.
Post in the forums. You can also share your struggle anonymously in the ReachOut forums here in a non-judgmental space and get support from others who have been where you are and gotten through it.
Get creative. Find things to do to distract yourself from feeling shitty and that get you thinking creatively. This can include drawing a picture, writing a poem, or playing a game. Even though you might not feel like it at first, even a little creativity might be enough to shift your mood.
Take care of yourself. Feeling shitty may be your body telling you it needs to take time out, and pushing yourself physically might just make things worse. Take time out to spoil yourself by doing something that you usually enjoy. Even though you might not feel like it, exercising and eating well can help. Getting plenty of sleep is important, too.
Exercise helps stimulate hormones like endorphins, which help you feel better about yourself. If you haven’t done a lot of exercise before, it might be a good idea to start doing something small a couple of times each week, such as a 15-minute walk or two or three laps in a pool. Visiting your doctor for a regular check up can be a way to make sure there you don’t have any physical health problems.
Avoid drugs and alcohol. Try not to use alcohol or other drugs (including lots of caffeine or other energy-boosting drinks) in the hopes of feeling better. The feeling is usually temporary and the side effects often make you feel worse.

If you need someone to talk to now

Try calling the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the Your Life Your Voice at 1-800-448-3000, run by Boys Town (for everyone).. Both hotlines have trained volunteers ready to listen 24/7.

 not just that, I also found another helpful website, and I thank God again for this
this one is, I usually read it but haven't gone here before, now let me share it to you:

Everyone has times in their life when they feel demotivated, lost, and unhappy. You're in a rut, and you don't know how to get out of it. Life may keep piling it on, but here are a few starting points for how you can climb out of your hole and get back on track.
This is an awfully big topic, so we recently asked you for personal experiences, and you delivered. There were so many great contributions, so thank you to all who told your story. These are all great stories and tips from readers just like you—mixed in with our own tips and strategies—that show you that it's possible to get out of any rut in your life.

Just Do Something, Anything

It's possible you feel stagnant because...well, you are. You wake up, go to work, come home, go to bed, and repeat. Sometimes when it feels like you're not going anywhere, you just need something to loosen up the gears. It doesn't matter what it is—many of you recommended volunteering, taking a class, or doing some community service—but if you try something outside of your norm (especially if you learn something), it can go a long way. You can discover something you love, or meet new people that bring a new flavor to your normal day-to-day recipe.
A lot of people feel unhappy because there is nothing in their life that excites them, so it's important to look for it everywhere. Chances are your comfort zone is exactly what's bringing you down. You never know where something will lead you. If something interests you at all, give it a shot. Ken Reynolds did just that:
I decided to be proactive instead of reactive. I had always been fascinated by programming and software engineering, but always dismissed pursuing it in the past because I had convinced myself that I didn't have enough intelligence to do it. Rather than dismiss it again, I signed-up for an account on Codecademy and learned how to write JavaScript… I applied for a position as a Software Engineer at IBM via the encouragement of another close friend. I got the position, I'm learning and growing more than I ever have before, and have achieved one of my wildest dreams, which I never before dreamed was possible. The best thing you can do is simply do something. Anything. Once you do something, don't give up doing it. Ever.
What you do doesn't always have to be big. It can be just one small thing. Think of something that has bothered you for a long time and handle it. Fix a wobbly doorknob, cancel your Netflix subscription, or make an appointment you've been putting off. The sense of accomplishment will get you moving again.
hat's important is that you're making a move. You're taking control, no matter how small the action seems, and proving to yourself that you have the power to change how you feel. Join a local sports league, take up crochet, try a food you've never had before, or take an impromptu trip over the weekend. Just pick something—whatever you're feeling—and go for it.

Look for Support Anywhere You Can

You might think you're a rock, but the truth is that nobody can do everything on their own. Reach out and find somebody that will listen to you, give you advice, or even force you out of the house. No matter how alone you think you are, you're not. Piccles's says this is the key to feeling better about your life:
People. It's all about the people in your life. I guarantee there is someone, somewherethat cares about you. I ended up reconnecting with some friends from college that I hadn't seen much in the last couple years, and those friendships are what gave me the strength to keep going and move forward with my life. Having people around you that legitimately care about you, want to spend time with you, and want to see you succeed, can make a huge difference.
Seek out family, friends, or perhaps even a coworker to chat. There is nothing wrong with asking for help when you need it. If you think you might be depressed, it's even more important that you seek help. Depression is a struggle that can keep you down more than any rut, but it doesn't have to stay like that. The way you feel is completely valid, but when you're depressed there's more going on than simple unhappiness.
Get professional help, and keep in mind that checking in on your mental health should be just as essential as checking in on your physical health. There is always some way to talk to somebody, even if you can't afford it.
You can also seek out higher powers, if that's your cup of tea. Religion can provide strength through powerful ideals and beliefs, as well as through social aspects. Commenterjasonthedudley got through some troubled times of his own with the support religion can provide:
I began a downward spiral that closely resembled waste spiraling down the tubes. A few years later I found myself homeless and not where I imagined myself to be as a child. Having literally come to my wits end, I called on Jesus Christ to help me, and if He really was who He claimed to be He could get me out of the mess I was in.
Of course, there's always strength to be found in words as well. Maybe a particular passage from a book or a quote that gives you the jump start you need. Fiona2393 finds strength in a speech:
In the midst of a mild depression/rut, I came across the response Gene Kranz, a well-respected higher-up in Mission Control, gave to his team after losing three astronauts in a launchpad fire… I've gone back to those two paragraphs more times than I can count. Acknowledging that I screwed up somewhere in my life, and that I have plenty of work to do to 'fix' it, is half the battle.
Whatever it is that suits you, you need support from time to time. It's not easy to ask for it, but the people in your life don't want to see you unhappy. So reach out for something—people, religion, inspiring words—grab it tight, and start to move forward.

Get Exercising

There are a lot of great reasons to exercise, but there's never a better time than when you're in a rut. You'll boost your confidence, de-stress your weary mind, get better sleep, and you'll have more energy to do the things you actually care about. Translation: you'll be happier.
It doesn't have to be crazy when you start out. Something as simple as taking a walk for 25 minutes a day can get you moving and give you a change of pace. Commenter pdxwhy decided to start walking just for some time to think:
I started walking for fitness and then became an enthusiast for race walking. Doing this allowed me to really think and just be present. Walking allowed me to meditate and pray and literally be those important first steps to a better life.
I always tell people to take a walk and think things through.
If you're looking for a bigger shift in gear, set an exercise goal for yourself. Scott Thigpen aimed for a big one:
...there was a movie on the background called "Ride the Divide" which is a documentary about an event called "The Tour Divide," one of the toughest mountain bike races in the world. I said "Well that sounds like a good goal." And for two years I worked little by little training and building on that (and actually using the principles in GTD and applying them to Mountain biking).
On June 14th, 2013 I started the race against 160+ people from around the world. Needless to say, I'm not in a rut anymore...
Of course, you don't have to take on the toughest bike race in the world. As long as you get yourself moving, you'll feel more in control and ready to handle the things squeezing the life out of you. Find a sport, hobby, or routine you'll want to stick to and you'll feel better in no time.

Make Changes In Your Life, Big or Small

For a lot of people who feel stuck, there is a certain thing in their life that's weighing them down. It could be where you live, your job, or even a specific person that sucks the happiness out of you (or even all three). Take a little time to think about the aspects of your life andidentify what might be a source of negativity that needs to change.
If your job is what's making you unhappy you don't necessarily have to quit. The simple change of setting boundaries between work time and personal time can help. Commenterangrygreycatreads felt dissatisfied with work, but found a way to make it better:
I can't quit my job, however I have found that by setting some clear boundaries, not letting work bleed into my personal life the way that it was and doing more things I like (especially immediately after work) "Nope, leaving on time going to a yoga class" has helped considerably.

With boundaries in place, you'll have more free time. You could use that free time to lounge around and recharge, or—as commenter scarlet.pirate suggests—schedule your free time like it's a second job:
I had to WORK on it. So hanging out with friends was like scheduling meetings or client visits—instead of being passive, you end up being very active. Instead of "well I guess they didn't text me back" you start to take ownership. When is best for you? Hey I haven't heard back, are we still on? (People are weird; say, "you want to hang out sometime?" and it'll never happen. Say, "are you free this Friday after work?" and you start a discussion.)
Sometimes a simple change can turn things around, but other times a change of a much larger magnitude is required. Maybe there is someone in your life that is nothing but negative. As difficult as it is, cutting that person out of your life is what it takes. Your environment could be affecting you as well. Commenter edenn1423 was in need of a change bad enough to go with the nuclear option:
Moved out of the "destination" city that had a crap job and crap relationship. Just dropped everything and left. 3 years later, I make twice as much money for 90% less work, bought a house, have a baby on the way, and quit drinking myself into oblivion every night. Best decision ever.
Sometimes the change you need to make is all in your mind, in your way of thinking. Have you ever considered that maybe things aren't as bad as you think? It's possible that you are just looking at everything too "glass half empty." Commenter Reboot decided to take responsibility for what was happening:
I felt - and spoke "I have a black cloud over me." One day, I realized that bad things weren't just happening to me. I was causing them. When I took responsibility for my life and stopped making excuses, things turned around. It wasn't easy but I put myself back on track. I made choices that resulted in the "bad things" and once I decided to re-think those choices, the bad things went away. Sort of. Bad stuff still happens. But you control your own happiness. If you let life happen to you. It will be over before you know it.
There's no better time to try and adjust your mindset than when you feel like you're out of control. Remember, nothing will change unless you take action. You're in control of who you spend your time with, what you do with your time, where you live, how you think about things, and even where you work to some extent. A simple change in any of those things can give you the perspective adjustment you need.
There's no right answer to getting out of a rough patch because everyone's situations are completely different, but hopefully some of these ideas can be a launchpad for you. If anything, take these stories and tips as proof that it's possible to overcome even the lowest lows of life.

 And, last but not least:

If Everything Sucks For You Right Now

Sometimes everything sucks. It just does. You’re exhausted. You’re stressed. You’re down on yourself and you’re down on everyone else and nothing you’ve done has made you feel proud or excited or enthusiastic or even anything. Your greatest accomplishment has been emptying out your Hulu queue. Everything you write sucks. Everything you do sucks. You’ve resigned yourself to a life of mediocrity, because, maybe you could be the best at being average. Or the best at sucking the least. New goal: be the best at sucking the least.
Then, you do that thing which you’re never supposed to do, but you do it anyway because, hey, you’re already down here in the pit of your self-loathing, why not make this pit even less hospitable? You feel ashamed about everything sucking. You feel like, wait, shouldn’t I know how to not feel this way? You start feeling guilty, like, you should be able to un-suck your life and now the fact that you can’t is making you feel even worse. You’ve pretty much just dug a hole inside the hole you were already in. Fun times!
So, you spend a day or two collecting evidence, like you’re Sherlock Holmes trying to crack the case of why you are The Worst. You overthink. You overanalyze. You remember Debbie back in the 5th grade and why was Debbie so awful to you? You remember all your past transgressions, your assumed failures, everything that can burrow you deeper into this hole comes to the forefront of your mind. You start to understand the full weight of when people say you are your own worst enemy, because yes and because right now and because you are, you really just are.
And then, you go on Facebook (terrible idea) or Twitter (worst idea) or Instagram (the actual worst idea) or you go outside (maybe a better idea) and you think, wait, why is everyone ok and why am I not ok? You start to develop a kind of weird embarrassment around the fact that things suck right now and, on top of things sucking, you are also being a total asshole to yourself. You think, I am the only person in the world who cannot get it together. Everyone has it together, except me. What is wrong with me? Am I okay? Do I need help? That latent shame becomes full-on shame. It’s palpable shame now. And, you’re convinced you are the only person in the world who doesn’t do all the things they know is good for them, who breaks promises to themselves, who goes and goes and goes until they’re exhausted and broken, who tries to be the best by being the most of anything. You’re the only person in the world struggling to understand relationships, to balance friendships, to catch a breath, to learn to budget, to learn to cook, to do everything and be everything all at the same time. You’re the only person who is trying to do everything and be everything while having the feeling you should already know how to do and be those things already.
To all that. To you. To those who are struggling and then, to those, who are struggling because they are struggling. You are not alone. You are living and living is messy and it’s weird and you can be in the fog for a very long time until it clears. It could be nothing, it could be something, it could be everything. You don’t know. But, you are not alone. In the darkened corners of your mind, you may think you are. You may think everyone has it figured out and you’re the one left behind. Don’t believe it. That is not capital t Truth. That is the small voice in your mind who is being a total asshole to you.
Breathe. Have a cup of tea or some hot chocolate. Do something which you know brings your soul alive, if only for a moment. All the moments you have lived in have brought you exactly to this moment. And, while this moment might completely suck for you and all your moments have brought you to what you think is the truth of how much you suck, then, well, you’re not alone. We’ve all been there. We’ll all be there again. You’re not broken. You are, simply, alive.

and some powerful quotes too ;)

hope this may help you, may help us!
have a great day!
the storm won't last forever!
you're a diamond, yes you are!

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

so, what is it?

been full of puzzling mysteries

so, what is it?
will I ever know?

time will reveal they said
yes it will

but the question is...
do I have enough time?

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when I was in BurgerKing, I saw an oldman was cleaning the table, he was so old, maybe he's on his 70's, and I was kinda sad and I don't understand, why?
I can't imagine myself being old and doing that...
but my sister said it's a normal thing for the oldies, even if they're old, they still can earn money

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Sunday, March 22, 2015

something funny

so we went in to the cinema
sat side by side on M row
two seats only,
for us,
just perfect

the movie began to play
was good
was thrilling
we got a little talk in between

a kissing scene down to sex scene appeared
you know what happened?

he told me to not to see it, he even covered my eyes with his hand������������������������������

it's funny
but it means a lot to me, he's different

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when he told me that his friend died on his arms....
I was like....����������������
it was super shocking
I mean ...they were working together, like it was really nothing bad is going happen

his friend fell down getting seizure
it was a heart attack!

he got no idea of what to do
it was so sudden
the seizure continued
his friend died on his arms....
it was so

I somehow can imagine how panic and shock and confuse and scared and sad he must be

no one never know that it was his friend's lastest day

it wasn't an easy thing to deal with...
he got really depressed for a month
I know how hard it is to cope with death

oh God, he's been through things...

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Saturday, March 21, 2015

it was lovely!

I'm off to Surabaya, by train! for the very first time in my whole life ������
God, I'm so happy that we finally met and had a proper date, I said proper because it was so hard to have such a chance, two days in a row, I'm speechless, really God, you've been sooooo kind to me that I feel ashamed of myself ������

I learned a lot of things on these 2 days
and I feel reborn, I finally understand that things aren't that bad anyway

first day was terrible at first
I went to the campus and I found out that I was wrong, or I was just simply got the wrong information, because I didn't read all of the information though, my bad, but I learned that we MUST actually read every single information before we dediced almost anything, just gather it all, so that you're not going the wrong way hahahaha
then after that, I directly went to the tax thingy office and as I guessed, it was full as hell, and I really had no idea on what should I do, so I went it, parked my motocycle, walked in to the building, and I told the ushed : it's my first year, never been doing this before
and he gave me the queue number, guess what? got 939 helllllll what a long queue, the seats are nearly full, was only two or three left and luckily I got one, thank God!
I wait.....oh, I forgot to mention, that was the number for help desk queue! hahahahaha what a life that I got��
I mean, I have to pick another queue number to submit my SPT, and it also means that's a long.....long ......long....time to wait

three hours later.....
I finally got my turn!
and took only 2 minutes to complete the form, then the guy gave me a tiny paper as a proof that I have submitted the data, phew...
I thank God for this!
I skipped the possibly damn long way to wait hahahaha
and the guy also said that it's ok to submit it to the office in surabaya, so I don't need to go to jogja to do that (but I sure will go to jogja for...something else hahahahaha, you know what I mean ❤❤❤)

and...after that, I went to the train station, this made my day even worse ������
I'll tell you why...
so, I forced my cell to download in hope that I would be able to book a ticket for my way back home, but seriously, it sucks, I did book, and it did send me the confirmation email, but there is this stupid thing....
can not pay! HAHAHA ������
I chosed the m-banking one, but even after 5 times trial, nothing happened, no single transaction succeed WHAAATTT THEE.....
I tried it since even 17 you know...
ewwww....what a drag...
I gave up
that's why I went to the station, I really had no idea that we can buy it from indomaret! heck!

well, I went to the station right?
then to the customer service corner, I asked them about my booking, they said it all expired so that I have to buy it again, I asked whether I can buy it there or not, they said I can't, I have to go to the ticketing corner, which is kinda far away in Jalan Pasar Kembang, seriously, I walked on my little feet under the pouring rain, at first I have a thought that it's gonna be a little far, then God bless me! I was all right! ������
but since it's not possible to take travel nor bus, so ...train is my only solution, other than plane, but, no, I won't take plane, no way, I'm too scared of flying ������ plus, it's expensive and it'll fly at 4pm, just the same with train...if it'll fly at 10pm or so, I'll be glad flying, because it means that I got more time with him������
so, I'll continue my story, on ticketing corner...
I went it, asked someone randomly, she was kind enough to tell me that I have to pick a queue number (oh not again...) and a form that I have to fill, about the train, my id and all the details
so I sat down, filled it out, and I waited
till finally my turn!
took two minutes, got my ticket then yaayy!

went to the toilet which its handle were broken so I just trust myself that I belive no one will come till I finished hahahaha and thank God I was damn worth trusting ������

went hooomeee
for a few minutes....
really want to but meatball and something sweet and icy to drink
went out to buy
rained hard
soaked wet ������������

went home fast
took shower

oh, he messaged me!
damn 30 minutes late for replying ������
I feel bad ������
he said there is a nice place for eating ice cream in front of his office, but....unfortunately he got a meeting ��������
and it was a longgg longggg meeting
I cried, I was so afraid that we won't make it������������

but at 9pm he messaged me that he'll pick me up, OMG, I cried again

a few minutes later, he finnaly there, in front of my aunty's house, he's with his friend who I found out having the same name with him �������� what a coincidence ��������
and it was a fun night we spent ❤❤❤ alhamdulillahhh, may God bless us always

day 2

whoaaaa, was kinda terrifying! hahaha
we were late for the first show, I know we will, because he went for the lava tour, it was far and he hasn't slept at all ��������
I was scared that he got sick and all
he must be so tired I know he must be...
but he told me that he wanted to watch the movie, I was like yaaaayyyyy, but still I'm scared that he pushed himself too hard..������ I'm scared that he'll be sick ������
so when he didn't text me till it's 11am I know that he must be so tired that he fell asleep, but remembering that he wanted to watch the movie so bad (me too hahaha) so then I called him...till it was 11:30am
he just woke up, I feel bad for waking him up, I feel guilty��������
well, come the confusion...

but then...we finally did watch it ��
it was so enlighting, I'll tell you about it later

it's 4pm!
whoa, my train will leave at 4:50pm
so...we went to the parking lot, and it was raining hahahaha, a bit hard
but we went through it though hahahaha
just like in some movies ��������
and you know...
the traffic jam!

by the time we arrived, it was 4:30 hahahaha
went inside and find the checking corner, was a long queue I faced ��������
took almost 10 damn years (or feel like so)
coz it's almost leaving! my train is almost leaving����
I really want to give him a see you again hug (not a goodbye, no, never) but it was too crowded and my train was almost leaving, so yeah, I waved, he waved back, I'm leaving....

and here I am on the train, typing this
oh God, it was lovely for me, hope the same for him��

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Thursday, March 19, 2015

going to Jogja by PATAS bus

jumpa lagi ��

iyah, aku lagi di perjalanan ke jogja by bus, PATAS : Cepat & Terbatas
nah, ini pertama kalinya aku naik bus ke Jogja, maksudnya naik bus patas, kemarin once nai bus biasa pakai AC, seingatku tahun lalu itu sekitar 40k atau 45k gitu
nah kalau patas, harganya sekarang 100k
dan jelas pakai AC hahaha
lalu, kita dikasih minum aqua (meskipun merknya club ������)
selain itu, kalian juga bakal dapat makan, ada kupon makannya cyinnn
kata mbak sebelahku, yg kebetulan anak UPN, biasanya 5 atau 6 jam udah sampai, I hope so!
besok pas balik surabaya, aku pengen naik kereta, tapi tadi aku udah booking lewat app nya susah banget transfer lewat m-BCA nggak ada sms konfirmasi yang menandakan bahwa itu sudah masuk atau transfer berhasil, hoamm��������
padahal biasanya aku cepet banget kok kalau pakai m-BCA, entah mengapa ini kok udah sejam sampai waktu bookingku expired, masih belom bisa ������
yasudah, besok aku coba lagi, tadi ada yang harganya 115k, berangkat jam 4 sore dari stasiun tugu ke stasiun gubeng, kurang lebih 4 jam 44 menit, we'll see ��

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Tuesday, March 17, 2015

tentang SIM

nah, sebagaimana telah saya deklarasikan di post sebelumnya, tepatnya 3 post dari ini jaraknya ������

saya akan post segalanya, sebaik-baiknya
nah, ada beberapa hal yang ingin saya bagi, dari hasil membaca kemarin, diilhami dari melihat SIM BII UMUM milik salah satu AMT (Awak Mobil Tangki) pertamina di kantor, saya menjadi penasaran, sebenarnya ada berapa macam SIM untuk kendaraan yang ada di darat? lalu bagaimana untuk SIM kereta api? SIM pesawat? SIM kapal? apa semuanya punya SIM? atau bagaimana? I need to know

so, I googled it, as always ������

nah ternyata kalau untuk mobil & motor, ini aturannya, ada 5 jenis SIM, yaitu
SIM A : mobil penumpang atau barang gak lebih dari 3500kg
SIM B I : sama kayak A tapi boleh lebih dari 3500kg
SIM B II : sama kayak B I tapi bedanya dia bentuk penarik, ada kereta tempelan, gandengan misal truk gandeng, truk BBM, truk kontainer dkk
SIM C : sepeda motor
SIM D : kendaraan khusus kaum difabel
lalu untuk A, BI, BII ada sim Umum nya, yaitu untuk kendaraan umumnya

nah, untuk masinis kereta api, namanya bukan SIM, tapi mereka punya sertifikat yang mana itu adalah bukti sertifikasi pendidikan masinisnya, begitu juga dengan pilot, yang mana kemarin aku baca ada 3 jenis lisensi atau sertifikasi pilot
pertama itu private pilot license, dia bisa nerbangkan pesawat mesin tunggal, tanpa kru tanpa penumpang, jadi single, hanya dia saja, selain itu tidak boleh untuk terbang di malam hari (still wondering why, maybe berpengaruh kepada keahlian terbangnya juga sih ya) trus jam terbangnya sekitar puluhan jam, jadi nggak ratusan per bulan nya, beda sama pilot airlines Garuda dkk yang perbulan sampai ribuan jam terbang (yaiyalah) dia cuman 60 jam terbang
dan yang kedua, ada yang namanya commercial pilot license, ini bakal boleh terbang malam, masih tanpa kru, tapi boleh bawa penumpang, no way, dan biasanya mereka juga terbang pakai pesawat mesin tunggal, boleh untuk komersial tapi bukan nerbangin boeing atau airbus lah yaaa, secaraaa hahahaha, mereka bisa nerbangin untuk keperluan komersil seperti nyemprotin pupuk, pemadaman api, pemotretan, laporan lantas dkk jam terbangnya sekitar 200 jam
ini nih selanjutnya yang paling mutakhir : airline transport pilot license nah inilah yang dimiliki oleh kakak kakak dan om om pilot yang ganteng itu, mereka boleh terbang sekitar 1500 jam, siang malam, antar kota, antar samudra, antar kamu kapan aja deh, dan boleh punya kru sekaligus pastinya penumpang, all in kalau yang ini

selanjutnya, kapal, kapal yang di air, bukan kapal terbang
mereka juga punya semacam SIM namanya ANT (Ahli Nautika Tingkat)
ada tingkat dasar, V, IV, III, II, I jadi kalau dia ahli ANT I, itu WOW banget, dia bisa berlayar lintas samudra dan nggak dibatasi berat kapal ataupun alur pelayaran, jadi kalau nahkodanya pegang ANT I, aku padamu banget
kalau yang lain, dibatasi berat kapal, misal ANT I itu 5000 ton, kalau udah pengalaman ntar boleh 7500 ton tapi sekitar pantai
kalau ANT III 3000 DWT (dead weight tonnage) maksimal daya angkutnya
kalau ANT IV kapal antar pulau, ANT V kapal kecil antar pulau, ANT dasar masih cupu dia ������

nah sekian yang kemarin siang saya pelajari, semoga bermanfaat bagi kita semua, aminn, nanti bakal share pelajaran yang lainnya jugaa ������

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beneran deh ������

nahhh, ini nihhh, hahahahahaaa
should try this sometimes ������

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