so, I was desperate and literally feel like shit, yes shit, no censor...
and I just don't know what to do next...
I feel like talking to someone but I don't know how
I don't know who too
I can't just simply burst into tears and talk to anyone I face, right?
or can I?
everything's just don't seem right...
I feel like writing, but my paper always get wet of my tears
so, might just better type it
I know that I sucks...
I know that I...lame...
and stupid and reckless...
but then, I can't just stop and crying for years right?
so, I have to find a way to help myself, to put an end into this miserable condition I'm in
some people said that we must identify what makes us feeling so
and from there on, we can know how to deal with it
but what if it just too complicated that we don't even know what certain events nor things causing it?
like..we really got no idea of what's really happening on us, we just don't know..
all we feel is desperate
maybe we can find enough courage to talk to someone we know well
to a best friend of ours perhaps?
or to our parents?
or we can just post it to secret?
and talk to stranger about it?
but unfortunately I have no,
not exactly that I have no though...,
I'm just too confuse I don't know where to start
so, with all the confusion, desperation, helplessness
I began to do what we all might can do with no, or least harm
to Google it
now as I typed it, it must be sounds even more miserable
but for me, it's effective enough for self helping
so first, I just simply type : 'what to do if you're feeling like shit'
on first page first row I found this LINK
it's a web own by the U,S. to actually provide us who get through tough times
it's like helping to prevent suicide, helping us to get out of misery, it has tons of great articles which could help us to cope with A to Z problems, thank God it appeared first, I don't know what if something bad appeared, could drag me to double devastation I guess, which result in ...
speaking of suicide, as we might know, many people who been though really tough times killed themselves because they think that it will end the problem and they just been too long in extreme desperation
we can't blame them of being reckless and all
maybe they're just so...helpless
and we, wait, I mean, me, and me, who are almost there...
I won't it happen to me nor anyone else, really, it just so bad, we must prevent it to happen
and I'll tell you what I've experienced and how to deal with it
so, continue with the web
I'll just copy and paste it here OK?
so that you can read it carefully, it's really good, it's great!
we can identify what might be going inside us and then we can look for help
check it out: